My class tenth board result was declared and I passed class tenth with seventy-six percent. I think I got eighty percent but I am happy and satisfied with the percentage which I got.

Now class eleventh registration starts. Some of my classmates already decided which stream they wanted to choose. some of them go with their friend's stream and some choose by their father's choice. Some choose bio, some maths, some commerce, and some humanities.

 Well, all my friends had gone away just after passing out of class eighth. They make their new friends now they never remember me even by mistake. the group that was made on a farewell day now remains empty and with time members of the group are also gone. I do not take admission during lockdown so I am the only one who doesn't have a friend. After the lockdown, I was admitted to a school.Now here my friends and classmates become my seniors, because of their board stress they do not talk too much they enjoy their new friends' company. I feel the bond of our friendship become too weak but it's ok. 

Now let's talk about my class. In the classroom, all had their old friends' but my class was too good they never treated me as an outsider. I made two friends here then I started coaching so my new friends added to my life some became special and some became normal.  Normal means if you get it, it's okay. Even if you don't get it, it's okay. 

Now I come to class eleventh my two school friends already decided to take maths. I am friendly in behavior, because of my behavior I always talk to everyone in the classroom but I am always chosen as a second choice. means if their friends are absent they offer me their side desk. So I don't say anyone to choose their stream with me. All have chosen their stream,  now it's my number. I choose “Humanities ”. In my local region, people don't know humanities.They know humanities by another name “Art site ” and in my local region art site means the way by which students pass without any study.means the child who can't pass board by science or maths take art site and pass easily and then continue their family business or open shop. Overall the humanities subject can't help children achieve a good government job, this is the conclusion of people's knowledge in my local area. Okay, I take humanities in class eleventh. my family members did not put any type of pressure on me while I was choosing the stream. they told me to choose subjects that I could study. I am the first in my dynasty from my father's side who took the humanities stream. 

I never thought that I would take humanities in the future i never searched for the opportunities that I got through this site. I always searched for maths and biology careers. Once In my life, I searched for a commerce stream but never tried to collect knowledge of humanities. But that's life, sometimes things happen that we never thought possible. 

I don't know how many years old I was when I had my first dream and that dream was to become an army officer but I am fat and after this, I wanted to join the Air Force. With the passing age dreams also pass and change. Once in my life, I wanted to become a cook in a five-star hotel or the manager of the hotel. I started collecting knowledge on how to become a cook or a manager. and found out that for this I would have to do hotel management. My father is too strict so I never told him what I wanted to do in my future and they never asked me. I am not too good at studying I got the first rank in the nursery only. I told my mother that I would do hotel management in the future she said nothing just laughed and went from the room but when I grew I knew that people in my locality thought hotel management meant a child who works in a tea stall. then I thought if I told my father they surely scold me .suddenly my Father came and told me that I want you to become a government officer, not a waiter I admitted you to one of the best schools, I provide you with the best tutor because I want you became a government officer. then I forgot this idea. After some time I saw some photos of Mountains, rivers, and sunset now a new wish was born in my heart, yes you think right I want to become a photographer now I am in class ninth and I am fourteen years old but in our society photographer means a person who clicks photos or shoots videos in marriage now my father again scolding me but I wish to buy a camera and travel mountain, rivers places and click some photos of nature in the future.

 By the grace of Allah, our family is respected in our society. my father is a businessman but my Father has not permitted me to join his business because in a business there is no schedule for anything you can't take leave, and you don't know how much money you earn this month and some other factors he wishes that I will live a well- settled life. I have a job of fixed hours, getting salary regularly and some other factors. all parents think that their children live a good life but I only got the prize with the result when I was in the nursery after this I always got average marks and my dreams that I told you because of this my parents mostly scolded me. after some time I learned about private b.tech.  The course is completed in four years and the fees are sixteen lacks means the total cost is twenty lacks with all the expenses. then I thought that I would become an engineer but I am very weak in maths. 

When I was in the class tenth I chose “Maths Basic” and I knew that I would not continue maths in class eleventh if I took Maths Basic but ok I chose the basic option without telling to my parents because I wanted to pass the board exam. I chose Maths Basic but I prepared with Maths Standard classes. Math basic paper contains only NCERT-level questions and the standard paper contains high-level questions. I got sixty-two percent marks in maths by basic these marks are not considered good because from sixty-two percent twenty percent marks come from practicals. Which I got from my school for free.now I am relaxed because no one puts pressure on me to choose maths.with this, my merchant navy dream is also gone.

Now I think I will become a doctor with bio but if I do not crack a neet? what I do because I hate physics numerical and mostly I am not able to solve them and there are not many opportunities that I like. And commerce I never chose I was confused and my cousins told me for a Re-exam with standard maths and continue with maths.

 I never wanted to give a re-examination of maths with standard but suddenly CBSE announced that students also continue maths with basic but I never wanted to choose the maths site. my cousin told me to give a re-exam by standard but now they told me you are very lucky just take maths and become an engineer by a private college but if I took maths I was sure I would fail in class twelfth so I didn't choose maths.

 I did not have enough courage to take maths, bio did not have more options, and I didn't feel like taking commerce.

 In my school, most of the..in school language, we say defaulters take commerce. In the whole class two or three know the spelling or full form of C.A.Now only one site remains “Humanities ” I choose it. My cousins and some friends told me but okay. 

After two to three months my twelfth class started but people who say humanities is a simple subject are wrong. It took five to six months to understand these subjects. The answer writing pattern is different. My polity is going well but my history and geography are ok -ok but it is not my fault it's my subject teacher's fault.

 In my childhood, I never searched for how to become an IAS or journalist but now I am trying to prepare for civil or journalism and business. But my friends go from my life some go to Kota for preparation and all are busy in their lives. I became a normal one from a special friend my number goes to a normal category from favorites. 


Just give thanks to my past for these memories and thanks to my friends, teachers, and all memorial persons. 


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